PUB/PSS 2

As I have always said, Sundays are fruitful. Today's special cos its the busiest Sunday of the year so far and it begins from 8am to 2am of the next day.

Part I
PUB Scholarship Talk. Nothing special actually, just the usual stuff-theperks,the current projects, and just that they keep making us eat and eat. We toured the NEWater Centre @ Tanah Merah/Bedok and went on tolisten to some boring talks. The content was so dry and boring. Then-the boat ride! It was rather ok, if only the captain had increased the speed. The PUB guy was still afraid that pple would be seasick-come on, if you drive at the speed of some slow-boat, you will probably fall asleep more than getting sick. The main objective of the ride was to show us the Marina Barrage, but I ended up looking at the CBD and the upcoming NDP Performance floating platform and spectator seats instead. Funny thing was that the PUB guy keep on urging us toconsider PUB Scholarship-felt like asking him, why not the other way round? They award only 10 scholarships per year,out of 500+ aplications. Who's considering who?

Transition
I reached home at 4.40pm, ate a bowl of noodles (my dinner), changed into a blue shirt and off I went to meet Chie Ling at Kallang. But I was very late cos themoment I left house, I realised I forgot to bring a sweater. I went back to take one and left again. Then I realised I forgot to bring a plastic bag, so I went back and took one. I left again and only to realise I forgot mywatch. So I made the 3rd trip back and of cos, naturally, I was late. Haha.

Part 2
Project Superstar 2 Finals @ Indoor Stadium. My first time watching a concert there. Got 4 tix from Arthur (cos his nephew's Cai Weijian) and I sat with Chie ling at Row 4, seats 10 & 11. Lynn and XH sat at Row 7. My goodness, we were so so so near the contestants and hosts!
Throughout the concert, it was very noisy and loud. During the commercial breaks, all the stars went backstage and the hosts just walked around. The superhosts led the fans in saying the cheers and we, being the pple at the side, were less 'high'. Haha. The stars were superb, I must say, their voice being so loud and powerful (credit goes to the vol of the mic as well) and the atmosphere was great. Too bad, I didn't bring my camera. By the way, I still don't like Dawn Yip. Stupid Host.

Towards the end when the other 11 male contestants performed, I was super excited in seeing Lesheng and Cai Weijian.I was waving to the latter like crazy, yet another male contestant behind him thought I was waving to him, waved back at me instead. He still did some funny actions like pointing to me and putting his hands on his heart, as if accepting my support and love. Joker. I didn't even know his name. But now I know. His name's Jeff. Not wanting to break his heart, I just smiled. I loved the part where all the confetti dropped down best-its as if it was snowing. I was covered with the confetti lol.

Got a goodie bag with a notepad and a box of Hoyu hair dye-some brown-red colour. As if I'd ever use it. Must be those colours that had poor sales.

So who did i see? The superstars, camous superstars, super hosts, judges, hosts, plus Patricia Mok, Pornsak and Junli.

Ending
I reached home at 12 plus and had a mini dinner part 2. Overall, thou late, it was fun and worthwhile, afterall such chances don't come often. and i got to meet up with Chie Ling.

another Sunday...

Once again, a fruitful Sunday. Got a 3-quarter pants for CNY and this shall mark the 1st year of not-wearing-skirt during CNY. Heh. But i don't really like today, cos a Hungarian is an Angarian, and I was being made a Hungarian for almost 3-quarter of a day today. So naturally, I was an Angarian. And I hated it when dad starts shifting furniture abt just cos he wanted to wipe this ceiling or that wall. Who cares abt walls/ceilings getting dusty? Nobody's coming to our house anyway. And even if there is (which has a probability of 0), you think pple will stick out a finger and start touching here and there, up and down, testing how thick a layer of dust in mint collection you have managed to get? What a bother.

Saw Karen at TMall this aftn. Haha, cant help laughing when she couldn't find her family members after stopping a while to chat with me. :)

So happened to stumble upon Alfred Aldehyde's blog. I felt so disgusted after reading some of his entries. How is it possible that there exists a person who brags abt how rich/capable he is, without feeling his face turning red? Perhaps his mum didn't force him to eat humble pies. Or perhaps she didn't even know the recipe. Haha. And of cos, I don't see how proud it is to be exempted from normal NS duties and to be just an admin clerk. Can't he see that he would be considered lesser than his peers who went to some Tekong or dunno-wat camps, in future? Maybe he's too rich to work.

I think Guai Gia #01 will be reading my blog-finally, so I shan't say bad things abt her. Haha, no lah, nth bad abt her to talk too. Happy that she found a job that could entitle her free Internet use...so can chat online while we're working. But seriously, I think she's a worker who's being exploited. Haha, as if her pri sch is a MNC like that. Happy working gal, don't be too stressed ah!


By the way, anyone bought any CNY goodies? I haven't leh...

Mission accomplished

Mission accomplished! Instead of buying a pair of heels, I ended up buying 3 pairs, of which 1 pair's for mum. Went down to Bugis OG. There were lots of shoes there, but I just couldnt find any pair that I liked. No affinity, I should say. Headed to Bedok and found the Mr Right. Shoes, i meant. Nice and tall, very cheap as well, haha. Yeah.

Next on the CNY hunting list would be the skirt and the earrings.

stupid mistakes

Had the longest conversation with 2 colleagues today-Arthur and Mr dunno-who. Heh. I even knew more abt the Big M thru one of the conversations. Somehow maybe I'm still too naive or simply dumb, I made 2 stupid mistakes in my conversations. Not really mistakes, but it just made me feel like slapping myself after the words came out of my mouth. Sigh. Talk abt work, today i almost had nth to do, and yest i almost had too much to do. Whats up? I was surfing the net half the time. And it was a pity my parents didn't want the free JetStar air tix. :( Oh, I also uncovered a pin-hole camera in my office, right behind my desk. Sneaky huh!

Arthur asked if I wanted to go watch PSS2 Fianls cos he may have free tix, cos his nephew was one of the contestants-Cai Weijian! My goodness, one of the few whom I have supported. The others were Lesheng and Charlotte (or was that Michelle?). Though its really unlike me to watch such stuff, but I thot thats a rare chance, why not? Anyway, he may not get the tix afterall.

Tmr is my shoes mission. Hope to get a pair of new heels. Hopefully I may happen to spot some nice skirts too. Haha.

Horrible day?

The horriblest day of the year. Slippers spoilt. Cut my hand. Had a horrible scare. Had work to do from Sam and Arthur. Whats up? Long story. Slippers spoilt, couldn't walk. All the tools that could help was tried, but it still came out. OK Glue, Scotchtape, Big stapler. Useless. I walked barefooted for abt thrice cos my slippers gave way when I halfway up the stairs. The best way out was to take off my slippers. That stupid slipper made me cut my hand. But I 'earned' an early ride home. Haha.

Had a great scare by Sam. He told me to chaneg the company logo on his 52 ppt slides. I did. All of a sudden, I noticed a missing QTRC 21 pix. I thot I deleted it, cos I couldn't rmb if its was originally there or not. Wong came down and asked how I was doing. So I conveniently asked him if he thot a pix was supposed to be there. He said yes. Oh gosh, I nearly fainted. Tried to find the pix from all the files, but to no avail. In the end,I called Sam and told him what happened. He told me he didn't put the pix yet. He asked why I wasn't eating cos it was lunch and told me not to worry cos I can always put my photo there. To think he could still joke when I was so worried here. I was so shocked and worried and anxious that I didnt feel hungry at all. But I felt so relieved that I almost cried. Dunno why, but i'm just so scared. Guess I'm still too young? Anyway, guess I was too worked up before, I actually felt exhausted. Stupid adrenaline overworked my nerve cells and brain cells. Heart muscles as well. When I went up and told Wong abt it, he said that he knew the pix wasn't there actually. Contradiction?

And I don't understand why Arthur's name spells nightmare. I always feel so stressed doing work for him. My mood was spoiled for the whole day. No smile at all. Raymund was so scared to trouble me to call Christine. Henry was afraid to use my PC as well. Big M didn't dare to crap too much. Too bad. Not bad actually.

Good thing was I met 1st sis this morn and I received my 1st salary from MOE for relief teaching! yeah!

Durian episode

Today someone from the company bought durians. The no.1 hated food in my list of hated food. Everybody was like asking me: "Hey Miss, aren't u eating?" And for the 20th time I was saying: "Oh, I don't like durians." I was still wondering if I haven't got a name. Fred came and asked whether I'm a S'porean cos he assumed that all S'poreans LOVE durians. Apparently, I proved him wrong. I felt bad, not showing face, esp when everyone invited me to join them, but I really can't force myself to stain my hands to eat sth that I don't like! Sigh. If only they had bought pizza, which I might still eat though its also in my list of don't-eat food.

The big M took a half-day leave today. Phew! Peace for half a day. I think so far, other than the 2bosses on level 3, the level 2 bosses are still ok.

Someone called me last nite. I should be angry with him for spreading some untrue stuff, but somehow I was 'softened' by his sincerity. But it was nth.

Received the DSTA email/letter today too. Was quite surprised to know that I actually made it thru the Prelim Interview by crapping, but I had a feeling that everyone was shortlisted and it wasn't a big deal. What kind of assessment can last for 3.5h? I don't know. Mystery will unravel on 08 Feb...

Sundays

I love Sundays. Cos I don't have to work, which also implies that I don't have to see that stupid M in the office, and also cos Sundays = Fruitful Days. Guess what, I bought another new shirt today! That means I have 2 tops for the 1st 2 days of CNY already. I'm not gonna let history repeat like last yr, when I couldn't find any nice CNY clothes at the very last min. Haha. still, I lack bottoms, heels and earrings.

Talk abt that stupid M really makes my blood boil! I really cant stand him. The fact that he's got nth to do does not render him eligible to pester me. Pple who know me well know that I get very serious when I'm doing my work and I make absolutely no effort to entertain any jokers who try to disturb me and make me entertain them while I'm doing my stuff. Had it not been my intention to be kind, I would have told him to just get lost and leave me alone. I'm not trying to be rude, but I guess this is what normal gals would do to irritating-&-having-nth-better-to-do guys. Its sad that he's working on the same Saturdays as I am, and this would mean that I have to see him 6 days a week on alternate weeks. I have half a good mind to swop. And its sadder to think that I have to see him again in less than 10 hrs time. My goodness.

Spoke to my SciCo junior just know and learned that there were only 7 new members forthe Chem dept from the new intake. They have yet to categorise them intoresearchand crystal growing, and yet I can foresee that less than 4 will belong to the latter. I understand how Esther really feels-being occupied with planning activities for both the seniors and the juniors. Bad thing abt being the head is that on one hand, the teacher will be telling you to organise activities for these and those, as if they are simple tasks. On the other hand, you have entirely no idea as to what to organise. Worst of all, its hard to get things going abt among ur peers, who don't feel like doing anything, without them feeling that you are ordering them to do sth. So there you have it. All I can do is to tellher to jia you. What can I do? I've been through that and i received no encouragement from my senior. Its very kind of me to offer my moral support. Haha.

All of a sudden, I'm reminded of how lousily I'll do for my A-levels. Sigh, feel like crying. What am I gonna do if I get no As? Nobody understands.

Changing the topic, my mind has been almost pre-occupied with that somebody ever since that some event ended. I don't know how I ended up having good impressions of that somebody when that somebody was just an acquiantance in my life. Somemore, we didn't even know each other well, neither had we spoken to each other for more than an hour in all. I sure hope that soon that somebody will be taken off my mind...

Audition + work

Went to some music company for an audition with XH aft work today. We weren't accepted, neither were we rejected. The producer wanted us to join their singing classes. And of cos, we rejected the 'offer'. Who wants to pay so much $$$ to learn singing at an unheard-of music company, performing at some unheard-of events? Not being a sourgrape here, but I think the main aim of that company is to get pple sign up for their singing classes. We weren't bad, neither are we sad or affected at all, cos we weren't really hopeful and serious in the first place. Life goes on. Haha.

Speaking abt work,there's this stupid uncle who's always so irritating in my office. I don'tknow why he always like to talk to me, perhaps cos I'm new, so its easier to brainwash me with all his "history & philosophy", but pls, I have work to do. Twice today I have been seen talking to him by 3rd floor Crystal. I didn't want to offend him, thats why I patronised him. But that doesn't mean he can talk to me till I can't eat my lunch, can't do my work. All he talks abt-all the time, is

• how capable he is thou he's only a Diploma holder,
• how he's got the trumph card cos he's directly employed by the biggest boss,
• how he's better than some other bosses (who's only a-lvl grads),
• how stupid his workers are,
• how he dislocated his arm 5 yrs ago and have yet to recover,
• how life was when he was still a consultant 18 yrs ago at a major firm,
• how he's been working smart and others have not, blah blah blah.

U think i would be interested? Somemore he speaks so softly, how can I-who's known to be quite deaf, hear him? I was like nodding my head, agreeing with him all the way thou I didn't really cared abt what he said. I couldn't hear him! What can I say? No point disagreeing with him anyway, cos that would only prompt him to say more so as to prove that what you said is WRONG and what he said was RIGHT.

Aside, the funny thing is that there were so many instances whereby i'm so free and have nothing to do AT ALL. Its either i've been too fast with my work (which I'm inclined to believe so, haha) or there's really nothing to be done or there's sth to be done, just that i'm missing them out. I don't know,but I feel like taking leave. So that i have more work to do when I get back and so that I won't have to see that stupid uncle.

1 week of work

My 88th post! What a nice number. Shall make this post a COLOURFUL one. Anyway, 1 week has passed. I don't know whether you call it fast, but I can't wait for Rosie to go and come, so that I can come and go. Haha. But first I'm wondering how I'm gonna survive w/o her for the next 3 mths. Tmr's Rosie's last day. Thou I'm getting used to the work routine, I still don't quite enjoy it, perhaps cos of the pple here. Its not that I don't get along with them, in the first place, this is a mind-your-own-business kinda workplace and there is an obvious age-gap. But anyway, the crux lies with the horrible dose of office politics.

Here goes:

Some of the 2nd floor pple dislike some of the 3rd floor pple and yet some of the 3rd floor pple like to come down and bother some of the 2nd floor pple, when they know that some of the 2nd floor pple don't like them.

When the boss is around, some of the 3rd floor pple suddenly become so busy and start running about the 3rd floor and the 2nd floor while some of the 2nd floor pple laugh at how some of the 3rd floor pple keep themselves seemingly busy.

One of the 3rd floor pple wrote a notice that says: "ISO Auidt-No Leave Allowed" on the 2nd floor whiteboard and some of the 2nd floor pple sneered and commented on that notice. One of the 2nd floor pple circled the wrong spelling and insisted on taking leave on that particular day, cos he said he couldn't understand the notice.

Some of 3rd floor pple like to come down to the 2nd floor and order some of the 2nd floor pple to do some work. Some of the 2nd floor pple entertained them, some made faces behind their backs, some argued with them, some complained when the order-ers left while some acted blur.

Interesting? I think the best way to survive is to...not bother. See no evil, hear no evil, speak no evil-in front of all these pple. By the way, guess which floor I belong to?

Rosie says I'll receive big red packets from the bosses during CNY. Best is to bring 2 Mandarin Oranges. But isn't it weird to appear, all of a sudden, in the bosses offices with 2 Mandarin Oranges, waiting for them to give me red packets? How shd I go abt doing that? I still have 1 month to think abt it. Haha. Maybe 1 day I should set a password to this blog. If not my head will roll if my office pple read this blog.

Fruitful day

I don't usually go out on rainy days, but this shopping trip I made with mum this aftn was really fruitful. Got myself a Nike jacket and a nice, new shirt and necklace to go with it. The jacket is supposed to be menswear, but I can't be bothered. I thot it looked great on a female-thats me, and I bought it. Who says gals can't wear guys jacket if it fits? Its $99.90. Haha. Less than $100 for a Nike jacket is a reasonable price. The shirt's from Isetan, just a normal red shirt for CNYSi, but with the necklace,the whole set looks nice. Haha. $13+$5. So I spent a lot, but I guess once in a while should be ok. Now I still lack new shoes, new mini-skirt and a set of new earrings. Gambate!

When I got home, I had nothing better to do, so I took this photo:




This was taken at my neighbours' doorsteps. I bet no one has ever seen as many shoes, other than in shoe shops. Haha. By the way, its not just the many pairs of shoes. Its the many brollys too.

Spot any shoes you like?

Tuition

My 1st tuition session for the yr!!! Haha, I'm the tutor, not the tutee. Taught Sec 2 Chem using my Sec 3 Pure Chem textbook. Huh? No lah, its just Hai Sing Catholic's syllabus. No mistake. Quite ok, except that I thot there were many things that we were supposed to know by the time we started using this textbook, but I forgot that he's only Sec 2. I think 1 less yr of General Sci is really very tough on the students, esp on their foundations. I'll just do my best. Luckily i still have my O-level TYS, so I can give him some practices.

Finallymet up withmy dear friendLam. Hadluch and had a short nice chat over lunch-Jap food. Haha. She bought me my fave-colour pens and also my fave-earrings!!! Thanks so much, Lam, really like them a lot. Haha. Meeting up with long-lost friends really feelgood. Like the other time when I met up with Jie Ling. All of a sudden If eel that ever since I've started working, I really miss the schooling days with all my friends, cos we are all alone in our own workplace. Really hope to meet up with everyone once we all receive our pay and have nice meal. Probably steamboat, so that we can celebrate CNY too. Haha. Looking forward...

On my own

Today-independence day! Haha, what rubbish. Rosie didn't come to work today, soI was on my own. Somehow, I just had endless work to do. to tell the truth, I only had abt 40% confidence in what I was doing. Its considered gd in the sense that its better than no confidence at all. Haha. I hate it when Arthur comes down. Whenever he comes down, it means work. Not that I don't have work to do when he isn't around, but its just that sudden work assigned can be stressful. When I couldn't find things or when something goes wrong, I panicked. But once again, thats only me. Didn't ans much phone calls today, so I guess tmr someone's gonna complain to Rosie abt that. But I can't be bothered cos I won't be there. Heh.

Some small things went wrong today. Don't know what, but its definitely not the case whereby all-went-smoothly. Calling Rosie was my last resort and I was forced to make abt 3 of them. And by the way, I have yet to master the skill of making outgoing calls. Anyway, wait till she sees what I did today. She'd prob flip. Haha. By then my confidence level may descend to 0. You nvr know.

I'm glad that I'm on leave tmr. Till now, I still find the pple there quite weird, and as usual, I don't dig weirdos. I was called up for relief teaching today, but couldn't go. If they call me for again tmr, I'd gladly oblige but that implies I'm not gonna have much sleep. Don't mind thou. I quite like teaching aft being tortured by data entry for 4days. If not, I promise to sleep till 1pm.

First day of work

I don't know why this website is in Chinese but theres no way I can revert it back to English, so I shall leave it alone. Haven't been using computer for a long time and I really mean COMPUTER cos my house is use laptop de. Anyway, 1st day of work is no fun. Many a times, I feel quite lost. And forgetful also, maybe cos I haven't been using my brain for a long time liao. But anyway, I should go bang my head against the wall for thinking that teaching is hard, cos its till now then I know, data entry is even harder. I'm afraid of making mistakes and the things all look so foreign to me. Delivery Orders, Pricing list, Cement, Beams, all sorts of things that I have never seen so often in my life as compared to the textbook stuff.

Now is lunchtime and some pple went out to eat. I didn't know that theres no canteen here. Luckily I so happened to buy a sausage bun this morning, so that was my lunch. Seriously, I'm hungry still. Nvm, diet! Haha. Tmr I shall bring lots of food to eat here. I don't care! So now can slack.

Rosie introduced lots of pple to me just now and frankly speaking, I can't rmb half their names. Haha. Still have 4.5h to go. Sigh. I don't know what I'm gonna do when Rosie isn't here next wk. Think I'll just die. So much unfamiliar work to do.

Teaching is fun-ner.

Relief Teaching + JL

My last day of teaching. Gave them pop spelling and it was both good and bad. Sec 1F(exp) took it seriously thou there were still many getting 0/12 while Sec 2A (NA) was horrible. None took it seriously. It took me less than 10mins to finish marking all 20 scripts. Easy to mark, efficient in marking huh! Haha.

Met JL @ 1430,City Hall. I was so tired that I fell asleep in the train and nearly missed the stop. Went to RafflesCity to meet her, then headed to Suntec City + Carrfour and our beloved museum. It was quite disappointing to see the less-than-10 kinda number of pple. Actually it was logical and expected. The Public Power magnetic wall disappeared. The crowd disappeared. The atmosphere disappeared. The only advantage was that it made taking photos so much easier, cos there were no extras. And it was 1 great chance for us to explore the whole place thoroughly. Haha.

Monday must start work liao, sian.


@ Fountain of Wealth, Suntec


@the Atelier, where we 1st met


us in front of museum entrance


...where HomeMade used to be


Me @ the giant capsicum!


Nice view from the side entrance


Me posing next to a sports car, parked in front of the museum


Main Entrance of National Museum


Aircons along the stairs.........Spiral Staircase


the swinging chandeliers


Singa-Merlion Display


Kurt Wenner display


Look up!


...where it didn't look so deserted during opening festival

Jobs

Woke up very early today, the earliest since A-levels ended, not counting the days in NZ. Went to Springfield Sec to do relief teaching today. I was covering duties for a Chinese teacher, Mdm Wan. I took Sec 2B (N.A), Sec 3E (N.T), Sec 1F (exp) and Sec 5A (N.A). It was very hard to teach cos the students, esp those in N streams, were rude, rowdy, inattentive, having u-name-it, they-have it kinda attitudes. I wasted no time in finishing the stuff, completed 1 topic from the CL textbook for all classes, except for the Sec 5 class, where i completed 2 topics. I couldn't make them do the workbook cos I was only a relief teacher, neither could i do other spelling/work stuff cos the students weren't co-operative. Since they had no other qns, I just moved on. Too bad :)

Lets see. There was a gal from Sec 2B who took my relief pass to the toilet since the start oof the lesson, and came back just before class ended. I sent a prefect to look for her, so she came back and gave me a 'look' and commented tt its only a while tt she excused herself. Very funny. 35mins lesson, missing for 30mins, she had the cheek to tell me its only a while. Sec 3E only had 2 chinese gals. Sec 1F was the most well-behaved as they were only Sec 1 students. Sec 5A was the worst. Students either left when they knew I was only a relief teacher, or they started sleeping, or they started making a fool of themselves. The million-dollar qns was: How old I was. Haha. I was made to read the texts, write out the new words, define the words, form sentences, etc. I wonder who's taking the examinations. What shocked me most was the fact that at the level of Sec 5, there were still so so so many words, which shd be learnt during Pri 6, tt the students didn't know how to pronounce or write. How are they going to cope with O-levels? But thats not my prob if they're not willing to learn.

My class actually ended at 12.35pm today, but I stayed back to wait for any guy, James from tpjc, who's also a relief teacher. Lunched together at nearby coffee shop. And by the way, their canteen food was so-so only.


Heh, relief teacher.


my desk...




me, at my desk, with music, Archie+ hp


the 4 of us

4.30pm had an interview at Sunway Concrete Pdts Pte Ltd. Left home at 4pm, thinking tt there's more than enough time to get there. Who knew tt aft walking for 15min,we still couldn't find the place. In the end, took a cab to that stupid secluded place @ IKEA/Courts area. When I reached there, I felt like going home. The place was like a construction site, with lots of Indian/Thai workers, cement, concrete, scaffolds, etc. Still accepted the job anyway. Data entry and admin work. $1250/mth, with all te benefits, 8.30am-5.30pm, with free shuttle from Tampines MRT. Sad, no more waking up at 11am, no more watching 'Cash is King', no more shopping in the aftn. Sigh.

Rollerskating!

This aftn, I finally learned basic rollerskating. My 1st time, mind you, and I was horribly stressed. After abt 30min, I knew how to walk. But my legs were tired and I was perspiring like crazy, so I stopped. I didn't really fall, but there was once when my sis offered to pull me along and I forgot to bend my knees. And so I began to slide and fall backwards. Luckily my mum was behind me and she caught me and put me to the floor s-l-o-w-l-y and gently. Haha. That was so funny. As usual, I sat on the floor and laughed and refused to get up. Hee. Thou tiring, its quite fun actually. Haha.

Countdown @ Museum

-----------@ Entrance--------------Inside the museum-------

Last nite went counting down at museum. Much more pple than I ever expected, but the crowd slowly faded away once the countown ended. Pple danced, but it was just some pple dancing abt here and there. Pple drank, u could see the caucasians each holding to a bottle of wine and gulping down and down. I spoke to one of the guys, and I could feel his hand sliding down my back. Felt like telling him to keep his hand to himself, but I was wearing the official tag, so I just shut up. Some things i didnt expect of the countdown was loud blaring disco-like DJ music, the smog, the neon lights, the fireworks and the many St Johns medics. Heard that someone fainted yest aftn. I felt like fainting yest when the audience just crowded around me during the Project Bandaloop finale.

I was standing inside the 'blocked off ' area which was a small triangle. Pple just crowded around the triangle, pushing against the straps, pushing against me. I could feel the triangle getting smaller and smaller. I was with The Straits Times photographer and it was quite squeezy. Then when the performer came up, the photographer left. Inside the triangle was Yeow Ann and me as well as the performer. U could have imagined how lack-of-space it was. The performer went down, in came another photographer with his tripod. Now now, 3 pple and 1 big tall tripod with a protruding mic. And there was this Indian guy who constantly contributed to the reducing triangle size. I told him for don't-know-how-many times to move back, but its either he's suffering from memory lapse or he just didn't want to obey my request, it didn't require more than 10 sec for the next reminder to come out of my mouth. I don't understand how YA could tolerate a big size person standing and pushing him half the time. I couldn't, so I was quite frustrated. Then my stupid right eye started to irritate me. I was so tired and so unwell with such limited space and oxygen and an irritating eye. Once loft! ended, pooh! the crowd disappeared, vanished! Pls imagine the speed. I helped YA carried the metal stand to the side, it was so the heavy. It took me 2 hands + some staggering to carry 1 stand and he actually could carry 1 in each hand! I was feeling quite faint already. If he didn't help me, i would have dropped the whole stand on the floor. Haha.

There was bag checking yest and those of age 18 had their hands stamped, so tt they could buy liquor. Neither happended to me, all thanks to being an official there. Haha. Felt so privileged. I saw Miss Anne Goh with 2 other gal friends. The rest were all strangers. But I was still wondering, what on earth made her come down to a museum for a countdown? Cos she's still an educator afterall? Maybe.

The end of 2006 marked the end of my volunteering @ the museum. Come to think of it, I have made so many friends (Jie Ling esp), known so many staff (which includes the staff themselves-YA, Ama, Jac, the security guards, the photographer and even the cleaner!) and I even hugged and shook hands with the performers (Cocoloco, Really Xmas Show, Homemade, Proj Bandaloop). It was really fun thou there were so many instances that I felt so totally lost and felt like stomping off and ticking pple off. I have known the place so inside-out, like where the offices are, where the galleries are, whats in each of the galleries, how u get from one place to another, etc. I even got the chance to introduce the place and highlights to some of the audience last nite! And I think i've learnt a lot. Its definitely an experience not to be forgotten and I kinda miss the place and pple now...but i doubt I'll go back there, unless there's a need to cos I've visited the galleries so many times already, and there won't be anymore special shows at least for the time being. So thats too bad. Haha.

Class outing + NMS

Went for class outing today. Original plan was to go Sentosa, but the turnout was no good. Didn't know that my class only had 6 gals and 1 guy. Haha. Went to Vivocity eventually. My 2nd time in this week. Haha. Dined at Long John Silver, then went out to look at the harbour/sea, only to realise that a Sweden ship's coming to Sin to dock for a few days. It's supposed to be a replica of a ship in 18th century, which sank in dont-know-when. It was so majestic, like a traditional Chinese junk. We waved our hands and the Sweden flag like crazy, and the happiest thing was that one of the crew actually waved back to US! We even saw one of the crew members dressed up like those traditional captains. Funny that we just had Long John Silver and there in front of us, was Captain Cook. Haha. I left at 2.30pm, and headed to NMS.

The journey from HarbourFront to Dhoby Ghaut's only abt 15min. Luckily, if not I'd be super late. Went to see the Maria Theresia exhibit with Jie Ling. Nothing much, just nice paintings and artefacts. HomeMade was interesting, lots of Xin Yao songs that I knew, and I had the chance to sing along.

Lets not talk abt how little tasks I've been given as a prog facilitator. I was so lost before the item began. I just stood there, not knowing what to do. The staff saw me and decided that I'm transparent. Fine! I was told to be there by 4pm. When the performers started rehearsing at 3.30pm, I panicked. I thot I was late or sth. I couldn't find the IC. Neiher did I see the other volunteer who's supposed to be there. Finally, the IC popped out, but that was like past past 4pm and he told me that I have NOTHING to do till 5pm. I felt like asking him :' Hey handsome, if thats the case, why ask me to come here at 4pm then?' But I didn't, of cos, cos he wasn't handsome at all. Haha. Fortunately JL was with me all the while, if not I'd have been super duper worried.

I don't know why, but aunties just like to come and talk to me. One auntie approached me and asked me a lot of things. Then she started giving me a lecture on "how $$$ isn't impt" and "why porridge with soy sauce is good for me". Haha. Eventually, my task was to shoo pple from crowding around the escalator area. At least I had sth to do.

Dinner according to JL and one of the camera crew was horrible, so I skipped that and ate Polky instead. Project Bandaloop was fantastic but the front part was a little boring. Perhaps I still don't really know how to appreciate Arts. But I must say, the turnout for that was quite good. I almost had no space to stand. Haha.

Tmr's the countdown. I really doubt the no. of pple who will come to a museum for countdown. Its like so contradicting, but well, its an experience anyway.

PS Slippers really come in handy or leggy when you are rushing for MRT trains. My flip-flops were so noisy and loud that pple just stood on one side of the escalator and let me passed. Haha.

My birthday present

Went out with Zj today to buy my birthday present. I was late for 10min cos I overslept. Haha, its only just me. Anyway, I must say a wonderful present i've got. Thanks a lot to all who have made the gift possible. Zj (special thanks for being my wallet), Geraldine, Karen, Eliza, Gladys, Kai Sheng, Zhi Han, Dennis, Jeffrey and Darren. Thanks so much.

Went out with Geraldine...

Met up with Geraldine today. We met at 12 nn, and this dear frined of mine actually woke up at 12 nn. Haha. made me wait for almost 1h. Never mind, I wasn't in a rush anyway. We had lunch @ food junction. I couldn't stand anymore chips/fries cos I have been eating them for almost 11 days. So no more fast food for the time being. Walked around RafflesCity, City Link and Suntec. A pity Fan Sheng wasn't working today, if not,we could have dropped by and said hi. Anyway, we saw Ziying @ TCC, City Link. Almost couldn't recognise her in her waitress uniform. Haha. Went into Carrfour and had a long rest-guess we were tired after walking for so long. Not long actually. Haha.

Finally back...

Yah, I'm back. Just a few hours ago. It was a pleasant trip. Took a total of 759 photos, which I have just uploaded them, and have yet to sort them out. Its summer in NZ,yet the slightest hint of the swason that one can ever getis the early sunrise (5am) and the late sunset (9.30pm). Tried out many interesting stuff like jet boating, hot air balloon and getting splashed by waterfall. Cool! The scenary in Christchurch and Milford sound were simply awesome! City centres of both North and South islands were busy too. Auckland Sky Tower is so TALL. So many sheep and cows on so many patches of green grass, my goodness! I didn't expect Queenstown to be so boring....etc


I have lots to say, but let me rest first before I get everything typed and posted. Just want to say that I really love the weather here. At least you don't experience 4 seasons in a day.

Busy body

I'm referring to myself. Tmr's the day I'll be leaving for NZ and theres still a lot of packing to doandwe haven't changed money yet. Bought a new digital cam, only to realise that the Workshop CD is not working. Went down to Sim Lim Sq and got a new CD, but the same prob again. Mum and Sis are super busy now, and I'mstill blogging. No time liao!

End of Cocoloco

So sad. I'm quite surprised at myself. Its just 2 days and I've actually grown attached to Helen and Trevor and the museum, even thou I really didn't do much. Today's acts were rather well done. The 2nd set was no longer the ET, but sth very English. Trevor wore a torn tuxedo, while Helen wore a super short red dress, with some sticking- fury- red- cute thing all on her hands and legs. The things keep on dropping and i was behind them, picking up the red things that fell off. The way they looked scared many people. Some thot they were for real during the 1st act, Audrey and Audrey. There was an encouraging no. of audience forAlice and Alice, which was really, encouraging! And we almost got lost in the History Gallery. Trevor was afraid that we'd all become permanent exhibits. Haha. That was funny. Even the security guards were quite scared to see me around-cos my presence would mean that the 2 weirdos are out roving the museum again. Haha. So I actually know the guards well enough to joke with them yah. Yah, and I talked to the photographer and other staff as well.


Elizabeth told me that Hydromania was great. A pity I missed both shows. Today was quite alright actually. The both of them were late, cos of the roadblocks almost everywhere for the marathon. While they visited the galleries, Elizabeth and I had time to sit down for tea and biscuits. Haha. I want to say that Elizabeth was really a great LO. She had lots of experience. The way she spoke, the opinions she gave, the way she handled people and things...no wonder she got the job! I wouldn't be half as good if I were given the job successfully. So it looks like I have lots to learn.


When I left, Trevor and Helen each gave me a hug. My first hug! ~No lah, just joking. But it felt really great and I actually felt like crying. But for that instant only. My point being, although I really felt like an extra there, or rather I was an extra, and that I really don't like to be there, but it really saddens me that everything's ending so soon.


Cocoloco was really great and a hugh success, to me. It was really great experience for me.

National Museum Opening Festival

Went NMS to help out today, from 11am to 6.30pm, inclusive of lunch and snacks. Anyway, I was in-charge of Cocoloco and the Sock Puppets. Cocoloco was funny and not exactly what I had imagined. The 2 'clowns' moved about the museum, amusing and scaring anybody they could find. A pity there weren't many people. They had 3 diff looks. The 1st was somewhat like a maid kinda pattern, vacumming everywhere and dusting everywhere with a feather duster. 2nd which made them look like ETs and the 3rd was Alice and Alice. Both Helen and Trevor dressed and said the same, in a poetic manner. I dont know how to describe exactly, but they were funny anyway. But I know that they made 3 kids cry cos of their ET outfit. Haha. Poor kids.


Actually I felt kinda extra, following them wherever they roamed abt. Twice i lost them, which really made me panicked. Not as if they didn't know their way round, but its the responsibility part. Elizabeth, the LO, wasn't around and she made me take charge. I can't possibly tell her: 'Hey. I'm sorry, but I lost them.' It sounds ridiculous. Many instances, I even had the free time for Archie comics (that I loaned from Seige) and tea and biscuits. See how free I am! Everybody just minded his/her own business! And by the way, i didn't realise that Elizabeth's a chinese until she spoke to me in Mandarin. Actually I was rather dumb. Thou she didn't look like a Chinese, she's definitely not a Malay or Indian or Caucasian. What was I thinking abt?!!


Cocoloco endedat 4.30pm, then i went over to help the sock puppets and the three little pigs. Not as extra, but still an extra, opening the doors for the people, seeing the kids make their own sock puppets and finally clearing up. I really don't know what to say. Imagine yourself doing all these and you will know how I felt.


Never mind. Just 1 more day and I will be off till at least 23Dec. After tmr, I can start to think abt what clothes I'm going to bring for my NZ trip next Thurs. Oh my god, just a few days more!!!

IKEA Opening

I realise I'm always 1 day late, but nvm.


Went IKEA yesterday-the day of opening. My goodness, you should have seen how many people there were. We didn't expect to queue to enter, and when thats the case, we didn't expect the queue to be that long. We started queing in the carpark and along the store and finally we were in the store. It was fortunate that the checkout counters were ample enough to accommodate the customers, so the queue wasn't that long. But I hated the long walk from the bus stop to the store, esp when the weather was so hot like yest.


How shd I describe the store? Big, big and still big. Pardon my limited vocab, but its blatently big. The goods were stacked up high, and the place was as big as a warehouse. There were quite a lot of show rooms, its great to see how they have designed the limited space with their furniture. Liked their beds and sofas, so comfortable. And there were almost a Xmas tree every 20 steps, I think seige would love the place. Haha. And of cos, it wouldn't be called a grand opening, without balloons almost everywhere and kids getting lost and parents getting frantic and panicky. Haha.


One particular thing that bothered me was this irritating auntie. She did 4 wrongs. The 1st wrong was her dressing - try wearing long sleeve under such hot weather. Perhaps she was very cold. The 2nd wrong was cutting queue. All along she was far far behind us. All of a sudden, she was in front of us. ??? I stared at her, she mumbled sth and let us walked in front of her. She became right behind us. She should be FAR behind us, not JUST behind us. But never mind, just let it be. The 3rd wrong was asking me why didn't I jumped queue. Felt like asking her if she thot cutting queue was the right thing to do, but on 2nd thot, perhaps keeping my mouth shut would be a wiser move. The last wrong she did was stepping on my slippers. Irritating auntie.

29 Nov 06

Yesterday was the interview. It was a mixed feeling kinda thing.On bus 197, I was so worried that I'd be late cos the bus was so slow. But in the end, i was half hour early. Haha. It was a rather long wait, and I was hungry. After the interview, i was tired. I sort of flopped the whole thing, but whats new. Things started to go wrong wrong wrong when that interviewer asked me abt how S'pore shd respond to India and China's growth. I felt like telling her: 'How I know', but I didn't, of cos, i just crapped thru and scraped thru.


After that I took train to Bedok and went Lela's house. Pls, the journey was only half hour. To think i almost spent one hour plus by bus to that stupid ulu place at Jln Bkt Merah. Never mind. Baking cookies was fun. That was my 1st time, and i felt like a dummy. I didn't know that the dough would expand, and I didn't put enough chips. Stupid right? But never mind. That was my first time, next time I know. Haha. Took photos, my fave of cos.


Thanks Lela, for letting me bake such wonderful cookies.

03/05 Chalet

Lam, Jac and ZJ: For ur reading pleasure.


Today...went to Zj's class chalet. It was fun thou the weather was not very nice and we didn't really do much. Met zj supposedly at 1215, who knows both of us were late. For once, she was even later than me. Haha. Proud of myself. Went to White Sands NTUC to buy the BBQ stuff. What did we buy? Hmm...party needs, zj's LETTUCE, baby potatoes, tomatoes, snacks...thats all, i think. Took the free shuttle bus at 1345 and kena scolding from the bus driver for missing the stop. Toopid bus driver, how dare he scold us-passengers! We've got all the time on earth, can't we just sit in the bus forever? Haha.


Super heavy rain when we alighted. Gladys, Fatima & Ah Tai went in 1st, me and Zj waited for the brollies. Hanzhi went to fetch us aft tt. Thou we had brollies, its only slightly better than without them, cos we were quite drenched too. Haha. But 1 lesson learnt: Don't ever wear slippery slippers to chalets when u know its gonna rain. Luckily nobody slipped today.


In the chalet what did we do? Took photos (my fave!), watched tv (as if my house don't have like tt), pillow fight with zj, attempted to play blackjack (the keyword is ATTEMPTED) and lastly BBQ. It was rather fun looking at how pple start the fire and place the charcoals and fan the ashes and smoke til the wire mesh broke. And not forgetting having fun holding the umbrella for Wen Jun & unfortunately, Jerome (supposedly the charcoals) Haha. 4L came in the evening, with her never-closed-umbrella which she held on to even when it has stopped raining. I left at late 7 plus, after 1 crabstick, 1 baby potato, 1/2 hot dog (courtesy of 03/05), 1 mid-wing and some Bee Hoon (courtesy of 4L), under the escort of 4 guardian angels with empty stomachs (zj, fatima, gladys and Ah Tai). How honoured! Liked the way 4L talked. Not cos her words were INSPIRING, but cos she was so COMICAL. Haha.

From the smiles, its easy to tell that I've enjoyed myself.


Heres some touching words. Thanks lam, jac and zj for ur invitations and I wouldn't had so much fun w/o ur presences. Thanks lam, jac for the birthday present, love the colours! Thanks zj for escorting me and the return card enclosed with the super big sweet. Please convey my thanks to ur class 03/05 for all the fun I've had, esp my other 3 guardian angels. Oh, should I also thank ur CG's CT's maid for the food too? Haha. Thanks.

I still think Wai Yong really looked like Li Nan Xing, and tt Linyuan and Hanzhi really are compatible, but not Jun Long and Wan Qing and that Jerome really is... and Wen Jun is really GREAT, and Keow Koon is really pretty and the class pple are simply...wonderful. :)

With Seige

The day...had McBreakfast @ TMall with Seige this morn, so fun. I was a bit late cos I was busy watching Doraemon. Haha. Got stood up by Prisc...toopid Prisc! Haha. Went to look at Xmas trees (so nice), toys 'R' us, Yamaha...then to Seige's house, cos I had no key to go home and I had to be at somewhere else in the aftn supposedly. Spent some time there. Stole 32 Archie digests from her, sang almost all choir songs together (& realised tt she's got such wonderful memory-not only did she rmb the tunes, she rmb the lyrics too-crazy!), gossiped about many people-including the PHANTOM, took and looked at photos, listened to songs & podcasts, played Internet...this is what I call spending quality time. Haha. To think we've almost lost contact for 2 years,and we're still so close. I feel so 'xing fu'. To Seige, thanks for everything. U're really a great friend. I'll not forget the interests for the digests. :)

End of A-levels

Today is the day...the end of A levels. Nothing to say abt the S Papers except that they were DIfficult! Never mind, at most get ungraded only lor. Not impt de.Haha. How I celebrated? Went to LJS @ TMall...saw the escalators with the CAUTION Sticker...aiyoh. We had a very long lunch...chatted a lot. So happy.


Met Seige at the place we are meeting tmr. So qiao. Haha. Can't wait to have breakfast with her tmr. Are u reading this, Seige? I'm very very eager to really meet up with u!


Then I went down to NMS. A bit bored. No liaison officer also nvm lah. Haha. Made 2 new friends-Maryann (ACJc) and Geok Han (HCI). Got a free Teh Tarik as well. Seems like I'll have a busy countdown this year.


Anyway, no more notes!I'mnot going to read or touch anything got to do with Maths/Chem/Phy/Bio/GP. Nobody is allowed to ask me anything got to do with those stuff. Haha. Its time to relaxliao and start packing and preparing for my long vacation.


Zj, u want to work ah...can lah,but no NTUC, no Shop N Save, no McDonalds. I don't want to wash toilets. Haha. I can source for good jobs for u if u dont mind. But no hurry lah, lets wait till Dec aft my trip lah hor, can? Haha.

Bio

Another paper down... 3 more papers to go. Somehow I feel very disappointed with my performance in this A levels. I think I would do very badly for all the subjects. Getting an A seems almost impossible for any subject. Sigh. I still think doing ok for prelims is a no-no.


I don't think the problem lies with the papers, I think the problem lies in ME. To think I cant even spell gibberellin. Horrible. To speak the truth, I haven't really been performing up to standards. Perhaps I had the same feelings during Prelims, which I can't rmb, but i do hope I'm just being too paranoid and pessimistic and that things aren't as bad as I think. The only chance to save my bio paper is the MCQ, which i doubt can save me much.


I'm feeling quite funny now. On one hand, I hope people will console me, telling me that things aren't that bad, on the other hand, I rather people around me just not say anything and just let me face up to reality. I also don't know. But i do know that hearing how others keep getting the right ans does not sound consoling at all. I'm not implying that others are not supposed to get the right ans, but it only shows how lousy I've been.


1 more Bio MCQ, 2 more S Papers, 4 more nights, 5 more days...

hello!

Have been posting a lot lately. All because of some stupid messages that made me angry.


But anyway, 1 more week to end of my exams. Can't wait to have lunch with Zj on the last day, can't wait to go out with Seige, can't wait to contact NHB and start work as a liason officer, can't wait to make preparations for my EOY NZ trip...and the list goes on. I'm not going to bother abt some outings that some poeple, who knew that I can't go, organised, cos I can't go. Thats simple.


Of course I quite envy those who didn't take Bio, cos their papers ended just yest, and think abt it, they're already enjoying their hols right now, when I still have 4 more papers to go. But I really don't mind lah, afterall I chose the subjects and papers I want to take. Its good for me. 6 days really aren't a lot. Can survive de. And this, is self-encouragement. And speaking of that, I haven't started studying for Mon's Bio option yet. Maybe later lah, slack first more impt. Haha.

Long time no see

I realised I have't been blogging since abt 1 week ago. Thou nobody may be reading, but I might as well post something.


I don't wish to sound depressed, but I really think I'm a goner. Whats the point of doing well during prelims and not doing wellin the actual A levels? And thats the precise predicament I'm in right now. I'm so very disappointed with the many stupid mistakes in my maths paper. I think I'm placed at a very risky spot. I really will knock my head against anything I can find if my carelessness had caused my grade to drop from A to B. Physics was horrible also. Had I not made so many mistakes in the MCQs which cost 2m each, I think i wouldn't have died so horribly. But over liao, too bad.


I just received a phone call from a crazy fella. The first thing he said to me was "What are you doing now?" I was totally shocked and filled with qn marks. I asked him who he was, he told me to guess. I asked him if he had made a wrong call, he said no and told me not to be like that. Like what?!! Am I supposed to entertain someone whom I don't know? To hell with him, man. Scare people like that past midnight. Luckily I'm still awake, if not I would have been...don't know, maybe shocked to death? Haha, anyway, I scolded him and hung up on him. Too bad, just his luck to make a prank call like that and got answered by me. Crazy fella!

Short break

Finally can rest for 2 afternoons liao.The 2 day "marathon" was horrible. So many things to study, so little time to study.Think I will shatter some day, if I'm not given theis 2 afternoon' rests. Ok, now I dont even know what I'm typing.


Miss Wong gave us all cookies this morning. She baked them herself. Wow! Each pack consists of 3 pieces of cookies...supposed to form a "100" so that we can score 100 for our chem paper. Haha, you think its possible? I already minus off don't-know-how many marks liao. Heh...


For yesterday's bio, it was so-so. Not all that I studied came out, but all that I didn't study did appear. Stupid paper. But somehow I think its much better than Prelims. Is it? Actually i also don't know. Give me a few more days to think about it and I might say otherwise.


Yesterday's maths was ok. I ALMOST freaked out when I saw the 1st G.P. qns. Then the 3D trigo qns was such a discrete and difficult one. People like ZJ, KS all got 20.6 degrees for the angle. Me? I got 40.6 degrees. I wrong lah, obviously. Don't ask me where the extra 20 degrees come from, I don't know. I never get 3D trigo qns right de. NEVER! Ok lah, overall minus 12 marks liao. Still got 88 marks. Haha, what a nice number. Yah, as if I won't have other mistakes like that. Haha.

No more GP...

No more GP..., yah at least for the time being. So difficult leh...I usually don't do mass media qns, but there's almost no time for me this time round. I was quite frank in my survey form. I really didn't know much about Newspapers and Magazines, but thats as much as I know about charity, entrepreneurship, politics, myths and legends. But I didn't even knowif its "The Straits Times" or "The Straits Time"...I chose the former. Was I right? Served me right for not reading the papers. Haha. And I almost couldn't finish cos I crazily rewrote my essay twice. Crazy. And of course I stiked out the technology qns, only to feel a little betrayed after the paper and hearing some comments...Thats for Paper 1. Paper 2...horrible! I felt like sleeping even before I've finished reading my 2-page long passage. What freedom of speech, right of life...I felt so deprived!- of don't know what...time and knowledge maybe haha...


Anyway, its over liao, no point thinking about it anymore le hor...but its so unlike of me to think this way, so I guess this GP exam can still keep my mind occupied for at least a few days more. Hope that Mrs Ho doesn't come after me because of the lousy survey form reply...I was just being frank!


Oh by the way, I think our Miss Indian invigilator was great. Haha. And such a coincidence that the blur Mr Ang Moh that me, ZJ, Lam and Jac saw this morning was one of our invigilators too.

Start of the A-levels

Tmr...the day...of A-levels GP Papers. Stressed ah! Haha, GP is neither my favourite subject nor my best subject...I don't know what to do with it either. Get it over and done with asap better. Haha. Good luck to me!


Oh, and I'm so touched that my good friend, Seige actually dropped by (don't know if I'm still her good friend or not, haha). I was really just thinking about her yest and this afternoon and, poof, her name appeared on my tagboard. Hey friend, shall we go out after mine and your exams?

Irresponsibilty

Another hazy weekend...actually I'm quite used to it already. Tmr is the 2nd official day of school. I really think I will miss all my friends...afterall 2 years is still a lot. We started off not knowing each other and ended up enjoying many happy moments together. Even short bus journeys to the Bedok Interchange can be very enjoyable too. Although I can't say that I've got a very good class, but at least the gals in my class are really wonderful.


Till now I still feel very guilty. I helped KS checked his physics prelim paper and yet I missed out a point which could have scored him 1 mark and will make a grade difference. I did check, but I think I just missed that part out. Luckily he found out and claimed the mark. Although he didn't blame me, but i feel that its really my fault. I feel so irresponsible and guilty and sad...even till now. I doubt he'll ever trust me again...cos I think that's how I'll feel if i were in his shoes.


And of course, I made another dumb mistake during the week by making 5 people (including myself) do a Biochem worksheet which wasn't due till the next lecture. I didn't do it on purpose...it really didn't occur to me that we'll be doing the other physical chem worksheet for that very lecture. I think some people were not happy but they didnt scold me. I rather they scold me, at least I know how they feel and by being scolded, I'd feel much better...


I've been trying very hard, but sometimes i get the feeling that I'm still not responsible enough. But I've really tried...and I'm really very tired...I think I'm just a very lousy chem rep and I'm sure thats how some of the guys in my class feel...

Brand new Sunday

Ah...finally a brand new and fresher day. Yesterday was so trrible. I feel as if I was living in some hazy hazy world, without fresh air yesterday. Looking out of the window, I see like 60% haze and 40% scenary. It was really very bad. For the first time after how-many-donkey-years, the PSI hit more than 100. The worst was last night, with PSI of 150. 150!!! Can you believe it or not? We are in Singapore leh, not Indonesia...Then the night before was also terribly terrible. I smelled smoke, but my parents smelled none. My sister was fed up with my constant complaints about me being suffocated. But it was really bad mah...somemore people were carrying lanterns, playing sparkles and burning anything they can find in the park nearby...how good do you think the air quality can be?


Today was much much better. Right now the PSI is only about 37. Great huh? Anyway, we went Pan Pacific Hotel this afternoon for the MINDEF Scholarship Talk. Ok lah, the scholarship is definitely fantastic (they have only awarded 38 scholarships over the past 10 yrs) but if you are talking about the 3-mth BMT and OCS training, I really don't mind giving it a miss. Then the atmosphere is always the best when it comes to Q&A. As usual, not many people asked. It was supposed to end by 5pm, yet by 5pm I was already at home. Haha. The food was nice though...But today was definitely not my happiest day anyway.


& Talk about coincidence, ZJ and I were on the same train on our way to City Hall. Haha, where got so qiao one...

Maths Lecture +++

Today's maths lecture was so interesting...putting the real purpose of the lecture aside, its really fun to hear about things like hamming code and how the last letter of our NRIC is determined. I always thought its a random event. Haha. But whö's taking maths in University? Crazy ah...


And i find things between me and her turning about funny, but I don't know how to describe. What's going on? Actually I roughly know the reason why, and if thats really the case, I definitely don't quite like the reason. I have never treated her this way before...sigh. But there's no way I'm giving in to her just because of her comments...

Of results and CCA draft

Today got back almost all the results, except bio. Anyway, I already knew my MCQ score, terrible lor. Other results still ok lor. Hope that the A grade cut-off for Chem is below my score, if not I would go bang my head against the wall. So near yet so far is the kind of feeling that I detest the most. My bio sure isn't going to make it. If I can get a pass and above, is very good already.


Checking of CCA Draft was horrendous, so messy. Didn't know that the school computer system is actually so screwed up, mistakes here-there-everywhere. Lousy. Many people's summaries were of 2 pages, mine only 1 page, so pathetic, like I very contribution-less like that. Compared to my Sec 4 CCA record which filled almost the whole page, when others' were only half the page...sigh.


People have already started studying for A-levels while I'm still in the exam-just-over kinda mood. Terrible. Still can afford to waste time talking during the 1h 20 min buffer time somemore...hosei ah. Haha.

End of Prelims

Yeah, finally finish my prelims liao. Its so funny...at 1 moment I'm receiving my exam scripts, the next moment, I'm sitting in the exam hall, doing yet another paper. Haha. S Papers were tough, needless to say, to think the physics qns that I attempted was actually gone thru by Mr Chan during one of the sessions, yet I still got it totally wrong. Haha, who ask me nvr study...


Got back my maths paper liao, all thanks to my paper 1 pulled me up or you can also say all thanks to my paper 2 pulled me down... some people around me all get 90+++, make me seem so lousy like that. Sigh, but never mind lah. Bio so far is just just just passed only. Still got 89 marks worth of scripts with the teachers...whether my wish come true all not all lies in my DESTINY. Haha, I have no CHOICE!


Oh and speaking of that, I still have my essay and AQ on DESTINY and CHOICE awaiting me. Sigh, I want to rest also cannot. Tired leh...

End of Part 1

I call this the end of part 1, cos thats the end of the core papers. 2 more S Papers to go. Actually, I think the stress level has reduced by quite a lot by now. Cos I know I won't make it for S Papers, so anything above an "U" grade is considered very remarkable already. But even if thats the case, I don't see why the school is so unfair to have lessons in the morning. Why, don't need to study at all is it? I want my definition marks ok!


Actually I did regret...not abt taking S Papers, its abt not taking Maths S Paper. Cos I think my Physics is really getting from bad to worse. But its too late already. And I too regret taking the Triple Sci combi instead of Double Maths. Bio is really hard leh, and I'm so so sick of bio that I really don't know how I'm going to survive the actual paper. It really seems as if no matter how hard I've tried or how much effort I've put in, there's still no improvement. Once again, be glad that my results don't deteriorate...


And Mrs Ho was the very very 1st teacher to 'feed' us with GP compre. So fast eh? According to her command, I'm only supposed to touch it after S papers, but maybe if I'm in a good mood tonight, I will try to complete so that its ready for discussion on Tues, but depends on my mood. Haha....

Another break...

Yeah, 2 more MCQ papers and 2 more S papers to go...I'm glad that the prelims are finally coming to an end, very very soon, but it will only be abt 1 month before the actual A levels. My goodness, its fast eh? I'm not going to do well for this prelims, I know, don't tell me, and don't doubt me too.


Anyway, luckily there's no paper tmr, so I can stay at home and SLACK. Ok lah, rest would probably be a more apt word. Once again, tonite's gonna be the absolute refractory period again, to prevent exhaustion and fatigue. Haha. No depolarisation so no influx of any knowledge at all. All the knowledge-sensitive channels are closed. Too bad! Haha. I'm crazy.

Disappointment

Its disappointing...the prelim of course and something else related to someone else. Talk abt the prelim 1st. I know its meant to be hard. But I don't see the need for killer papers right? I'm referring to Physics P2 and Biology. To the smart people out there, I really don't mind if they beg to differ, but thats how I feel.


Regarding the next something, theres nothing much to talk abt. Maybe I'm just petty or too sensitive, but i trust my sense and intuition. Sigh, make me feel sad. Sickening person.


Anyway, just hope that the upcoming papers will be better. I'm left with Physics P3, Chemistry P1 & 2, Biology P1 and 2 S Papers. They will be difficult and thats needless to say. To avoid further disappointment, I shan't think of anything else and I shall go to sleep. I need that sleep!!!

1 week less...1week more

Yah yah, 1 week of break gone and 1 week more of hols before prelims...PRELIMS!!! My goodness, its such an impt exam and somehow i don't feel the sense of anxiety and urgency and whatever-u-call-it at this moment, despite having the whole of physics and bio untouched! Should I panic or laugh or what?I don't know. I guess I'll just blog.

Last day

Today - the last day of the term. The next time i see my friends...oh gosh! Its gonna be Prelims, which is like 2 weeks away. Seriously and strictly speaking, I haven't started studying at all, and here i am, still blogging away. Fine.


We didn't celebrate much actually. just some well-wishes and a mug for each teacher. And a cake for Ah Chong. Really reminds me of how 4e1 didn't show our appreciation during 2004 Teachers' Day cos we were busy with our prelim preparation. I didn't know the teachers actually expected students to give them something. As in, of course they know that students would give them something, but i didn't know they would actually say it out so openly. Yah.


'Bought 2 6R class photos. Really regretted not buying last year, so i don't have a complete set now. But anyway, its ok since i don't like CG last year anyway. But I don't really approve of the way the photog society handle our photos. First there was a minimum orde of $120, then there's the 150% 6R and 8R order. Now, they say they can't develop 4R photos, cos there's someting wrong with the machine. Yah, how convenient.


Back to the last day talk, yah, today the last day, quite slack too. There were only 4 guys who turned up officially. I guess the rest of the people pre-empted that nothing much would be done today. Seems like they are right. Great foresight huh! Anyway, I don't intend to return within the next 2 weeks, so yah. So long!

Things to say...

It really makes me feel rather weird and uneasy seeing the things that people write and their phrasing of words. I mean, is it realy true that everyone becomes a different person once he/she gets hooked on to the PC? Apparently it is, cos there seems like a few cases already. But I don't think I'm like them, cos at this very moment, I'm still thinking like the way I always think. Or has my personality already splitted without my knowledge?


This is my last official week for this school term. Fortunately, cos its only Mon, and I'm already feeling the kind of Fri's tiredness. Really, its a kinda mixed emotions. On one hand, I'm so glad not having to wake up early, to do all those dumb bio rev tests, don't need to attend GP lessons, no more S Papers, no more yucky canteen food...etc...and the list goes on...at least for the next 2 weeks. (Wow, I didn't know that there're actually so many things i dreaded about school). But on the other hand, I feel a little sad. Maybe cos it means I would be seeing less of my friends, CG people, ZJ & company...


Its approx 2-3 weeks before Prelims, and i can feel some of the people around me are going haywire soon. Me too. I really really have NO confidence for Bio. At all. I can really imagine myself staring blankly at the essay qns, like what i did during JCT, not knowing what to write at all. At this moment, I really wish to drop the subject, chuck it aside and never look at it anymore. I've never loathed Bio so much...its...I really don't know how to say.

Lets put it this way. There are so many things that i don't understand...and these are the things that many of us not understand too, or so they claimed. But I don't take things lying down...but i have nobody to turn to...ZJ had a shock out of her life when she saw how HE reacted when I asked HIM an MCQ. Hello!...its only MCQ...what reaction am I supposed to get if its an essay qns? I think HE would freak out. I think I would too. But no matter what, I'm still going to try my best. Yah, it sounds cliche, but tell me, what can i do? I have no choice right?


Right.


And for once, I really think that the songs sung by 5566 are actually so nice...

Tests and Results...

This week is really a terribly a busy week. Mon-Bio Rev Test Tues-Biochem Test, Wed-Ionic/Chem Equilibrium Self Test, Thurs-Electrochem Self Test, Fri-Physics Lecture Test, Bio Rev Test. I'm going crazy soon. Thank goodness, tmr is Friday and the week is finally ending. But so what? There's tonnes of work waiting for me to complete over the wkn.

Nanyang Concept Test results are out. I failed, of course, i didn't study or prepare for it anyway. 25/60. u think i can be in the 50th percentile, so that i can get at least a merit? I doubt so. Anyway, whats done cannot be undone, so too bad lah.

Mystery Unraveled!

It was that dumb ear stud or whatever you call it. My ear has been blocked for 2 whole days. At first, though impossible, we thought it was water. The when that dumb green thing went missing, I suspected it went in. Nobody believed me. Or rather, nobody believed that something would actually drop into my ear.


Finally went to Ployclinic to check today. They referred me to A&E of Changi General Hospital. It was scary. I was brought to that room, with all the metal forceps and scapels and equipment. The Dr first placed that long metal vacuum thing into my ear. I could feel the wind gushing into my ear. But nothing came out. He said that the ear stud had pierced through the flesh, and its stuck there. My goodness, I could've fainted on the spot. I was so scared I would become deaf or what after everything. And I was also scared that the Dr would have to perform surgery to get that thing out. I was just so worried. I was trembling, of course, from my teeth to my toes.


Then he used another sharper metal instrument, together with some liquid in my ear. U could've imagined the pain when that metal thing went poking and scraping along my ear canal. I was told not to shout, or to move. Fine. I pinched myself. At the end of the whole 'torture', well that ear stud finally came out. Both my ear and leg was painful. I was prescribed eardrops, in case of infection. But well, finally my hearing's back to normal. And I know there's nothing stuck in my ear canal.


It was really scary and painful. But I'm glad I didn't wait till a few days later before I see the Dr. It could've been worse. I've learnt a lesson- always to take off my ear rings before I sleep.

The last of NAPFA

I just ran the last official 2.4km of my life. Hooray! No more inclined pull-ups, no more standing broad jump, no more sit n reach...My nightmares, whether you believe it or not. Though its already like 2 days since I did my 5 items test, my body is still aching like crazy. You know I had such a hard time getting up from bed!! I can't laugh hard, or else...Haha.


I don't know, but i think some of my class guys are downright selfish. Why can't they help us gals take our timings? It doesn't happen in other classes leh...What's the big deal about playing soccer? We are all classmates! But I'm grateful that someone took my timing for me.


Today's run was terrible. I didn't feel well even before I started running, but its the last time already. By the 3rd round, I can feel myself almost fainting. I see pple all around me, then my sides were so so so pain. Then i heard someone calling my name, I'm not sure lah, as I was in a half-conscious state. But I just continued running. From my timings, I could see myself decelerating. Haha. So physics. But its true. I'm quite comforted at least he asked whether I was ok, cos I was feeling so unwell. I felt like going home. Thanks gals, who helped me.


Then today for chem, Miss Wong said sth that shocked me, which I didn't expect her to know.
I think the maths test was ok, so long as there weren't any deadly careless mistakes, which I'm so proned to make. Haha. So much so. And speaking of that, all our guys went round the school this morning, under the command of the PE teacher, in search of the luncher. It was so funny, its like some massive search or treasure hunt or sth, so interesting. Physics lesson was fun, with the exercises that were encouraged by Hello Kitty, and the bet that she made with us.


Yesterday's photo shoot was fun. Yah, making fun of pple. we insisted on going to some funny funny places to take our informal shots, when the photog pple keep insisting that they have a tight schedule. In the end, they still gave in, after much pestering from us and Ah Chong. But the formal shoot is no good, I think. I don't like "bird's eye view" kind of photo. But no choice, shall see how it turns out.


And yesterday, I also saw my level ranking. I thought I would have dropped a lot, surprisingly, I didn't. Instead I crept to 64. Luckily still in top 10%. But anyway, A-levels is the only exam that really matters.

...agacant...

I don't fancy people without simple manners and courtesy. I don't understand why he suddenly chose to sit alone in front, and rushing off the bus without waiting for us. WHATS THE HURRY??? Before yesterday, he wasn't like that. He used to sit with us at the back and talked and we waited for each other. I don't care if I offended him or not, cos I know I didn't. But too bad that I'm born petty and too easily angered by trivial matters. At the very least, I make an effort to wait for my friends who board the same bus as me, to alight.


I don't want to come to school every morning, feeling angry and unhappy. So I'm not going to board the same bus as him anymore, even if it means that I have to wake up especially early so that I'd board the earlier buses. And I MEAN IT!!!


And from this post of mine, I think its obvious that I'm angry.

Friday...finally...

This week is finally ending, finally. Don't know why, but I feel so tired. Maybe cos everything's in full swing liao, I really long for some good rest...not doing any homework, not studying anything, yah, I wish. Got Biochem test next week.


Yesterday's PE was hell. Yf told me that by the end of 3rd round, we would be totally exhausted. True enough, I really was exhausted. But it was so shocking to see the way she cheong during the last round. I caught up with her during the 1st 200m, but after that, people start overtaking me. After that dumb round, I really felt like fainting. My head was spinning like crazy lor. But still, I ran 2min. So total I ran 5 rounds in 2.02+1.57+1.57+1.56+2.00 mins. U tell me whether will die or not lah.


I've finally sort of "handed over" Scico stuff to Esther. I really don't expect the teachers to haunt me that frequently anymore, but appparently, I was not very right. Sigh.


So glad that Monday don't have to go to school.

Newsflash!

I set my alarm at 1.50am, but when it went off, i silenced it and continued sleeping. When I woke up, it was already past 24 min, and the score was already 1-1.


I supported France, but they lost. I was so puzzled by what Zidane did. I almost freaked out, when i saw the replay of how he butt-headed the italian player.


But I was even more disappointed when i saw him being 'awarded' the red card. That was his last match...it was such a pity. Was he crazy or what? Hand injury too painful that he was out of his mind?
Too tired? I wonder what the French would do to him when he returns at the airport.


Anyway, World Cup aside, i've got back my GP today. Didn't do well,
but luckily didn't fail overall. But so many people did so much better...sigh, nobody but myself to blame.


I slept at 5.30am this morning and woke up again at 10am. How fun it was to go to school during the afternoon!

Updates!

Today only half day...yeah!!! Went shopping and bought something for my handphone. Went to T Mall and saw the Hokkaido Fair at the atrium. Ate a double scoop ice cream - Red Bean and Green Tea for $5. It was simply ice-cream-licious. Haha, reminded me of the times in Japan, where we ate green tea ice cream for 300Y when the season then was winter. Haha. How nice.


And something quite nice...the chrome alum crystal that ZJ and I seeded during the hols grew to quite a size. And even quite nice too. Finally have something to tell Mrs Lim if she were to catch me the next time. Haha.


Now for the not so nice...lousy results of course, what else. Managed to just-pass bio, chem and physics equally terrible, but not as bad as bio. Sigh. Haven't get back maths, but I doubt it would be any better. For GP, I think I'm hopeless. Mrs Ho said that many did the technology qns, and many died on the battlefield. I'm gone for sure. How?

World Cup

It was so diasppointing. Argentina lost to Germany last night. But luckily Italy won, 3-0. Tonight, England VS Portugal. Brazil VS France.


John Terry got a yellow card at 29'.
David Beckham was substituted by Aaron Lennon at 51'.
Wayne Rooney got a red card at 61'.


Why?


I hope that England and Brazil would win. Haha.

Donations

I didn't know that asking people for donation would be so tiring. But it was fun and meaningful though.
I knew getting people to buy the CDs would be impossible, but I didn't expect the whole situation to be that bad. Its Orchard Road leh, the link being, its probably the busiest and buzziest street in Singapore...asking people for donation was bad enough, who would still dare to ask them about the CDs? But its rather funny to see their reactions though.

When you approached people for donations:

1. Some nodded their heads and walked away
2. Some rejected you right in-front
3. Some thought that you were invisible
4. Some thought that you were some kind of plague, and started running
5. Some made some remarks which you didn't understand and walked away
6. Some just stared at you blankly, etc

Haha. Not driving at anything, but I'm just listing my encounters. Oh, and there were "allies" too. Haha. I think I can really understand how those people doing flag day felt when they were being rejected. But there were really quite some generous souls who donated twice or emptied all the coins in their pockets. Commendable!

Finally

Finally. The JCT was a terrible disaster, especially the Bio paper. So what if I knew that it would be a difficult paper? It doesn't and won't make any difference. The Chem paper was a not-to-be-finished one. Didn't have time to complete, let alone check. The Physics and Maths paper were tiring and tough of course, and GP? Not meant to be passed.

Now that's everything is finally over, just keep my fingers crossed lor. KS's right- JCT is not about how you well you pass, its about how badly you fail. Haha.

Half of Last Week gone...

Ok. Today is already Wed, which means 4 more days to end of the hols. My goodness, time's really running out, and here I am still blogging about some trivial and unimportant stuff instead of mugging. I still have Chem and Bio totally untouched...and not to forget my GP homework also. No time liao lor.


Just a joke. Last nite i was recording the 9pm Channel 8 show. But somehow or other, the last part was recorded to become some Channel 5 World Cup News. The culprit? Yours truly, of course. I didn't realise I've set the channel wrongly, so this morning, my mum's 11am Channel 8 show, naturally became some Channel 5 sitcom. Haha. Blur. Ok, maybe not so funny afterall.


People who know me well may have heard this for dont know how many times, but I still must voice my anger and dissatisfaction. Its terribly dumb to have exams immediately after hols...blah blah blah. Haha. And I think the bio teachers are really cruel. They could have just set 1 qns on each topic and there we have to study for all near-20 chapters thoroughly, just to tackle that very minimal qns. Its not not-true, cos there are so few qns in a paper and so many things to be asked from all those chapters! Whatever, I don't care. If I can't finish, then I won't finish. I will not blame myself. Instead, I will blame the teachers. Haha. No lah, I won't blame anyone.


Tonight shall be the last episode for "Jewel in the Palace". Tomorrow night shall be the long-awaited "Armed Reactions IV". Yeah! Look forward to the theme song.

2 weeks gone...

Ok. Motivated by G, i shall post again. Haven't really been mugging leh, whether u choose to believe me or not. I still think its a lousy system to have exams or common tests immediately after the hols. Its really irritating to make the students feel guilty if they just idle their hols away. But too bad, despite my guilt, i've still done the latter.


Other than watching TV, going out and slacking, i really haven't done anything much. Yah, and I'm so proud to say that I'm only stuck by 1 Binomial & Poisson qns....thats because i only tried 1 qns lah. Haha. Serious. I don't fancy doing any more maths sums after being stuck at the very 1st qns. Naturally, I gave up. Maybe will try again on Mon? Maybe...


2 more weeks have past, which means 2 more weeks for revision. 4 subjects + GP...u think its do-able? Nah...

1 week gone...

Oh my goodness...1 week of hols gone and I haven't done anything constructive yet...What have I been doing all this week other than going out to school, shopping and some sports? None. Never mind, there are still 3 more weeks.


Oh and I've just seen viewed the Friendster profile of a guy in my CG...saw the many many friends he had...and the many many photos he have of himself only. Somehow he doesn't seem as popular among my CG people leh...such an irony.